I haven’t updated in a while again but I want to post something that happened very recently, just a few nights ago. Firstly I shall explain that I have been feeling a huge amount of anxiety lately about what the truth is about life on earth and in the higher realms and who or what divinity really is. I used to think, because my heart told me it was true, that the being or beings, many simply call God, is an ever loving and forgiving force in the universe. I also believed that we as ever living souls really do set our own fates to a great degree when we leave the world of now behind and go on the journey we call death. This anxiety though had for some reason caused me to forget all I had ever held true and simply fear everything related to faith. The wonderful news now though is that I am really starting to feel like I have over come that and am back on track once and for all.
In any case, a few nights ago I was lying down listening to music while meditating before going to sleep. It’s hard to put things like this down onto a keyboard and monitor without it losing it’s importance and seeming like a simple, unimportant occurrence, but it was in my mind still very important at the time. I began to feel slightly like my mind was tuned in to a new awareness. Finally I think the divine really showed me what is was. I had been more or less right along. In no way did I ever sense it then as a fear inspiring vengeful character. All I was able to understand is that is was an all knowing, ever loving, non judging power, but that we all as humans, in some way share a part of that power too. A field of stars and bands of blue and pink come to mind too, but I can’t recall how they fit in to it all or what that meant
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